tranquilityseekers: stone head (strength)
At last, I've had my next "teaching dream" that is supposed to help me work on my hidden issues (and chronic ill health, apparently.)

To begin with, I found myself in the lobby of a great hotel in a busy city. People moving and talking and working everywhere! It was crazy busy. A black woman rose from the floor, facing me directly, and I immediantly recognized her as one of my Guides. (The others take the forms of Andie McDowell, Mimi Rogers, & Lena Olin for some reason.) It was this gorgeous African American actress who was popular in the late 70s and 80s, though recently we mostly see her in TV commercials. She always wears her hair natural and very short, and she has exotic eyes. I have never held a particular interest in this actress, just as is the case with Andie McDowell, Mimi Rogers, and Lena Olin, but for whatever reason, she takes the image of this person. (**By the way, I've figured out the "code" to my Guides. More later.) Anyway, this Guide, a wise and older woman, literally emerged magically from the floor and faced me. She told me that the answers I sought in this Quest would be found down below, and she directed me to go down into the subways.  I was to find something. What's more, I was to be "in disguise" so that none of my Shadows or Rays could recognize me. Apparently, if they see me down there, they tend to try to engage me, and I needed to go on a spy mission of sorts, from what my Guide told me.

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Last thing I wanted to mention-- the cameo appearance of 2 repeating dreams figures. Vex and Brannon. I have to wonder: what the HELL was my Shadow Brother negotiating with a Diplomat for? What would he want with a messenger from my digestive system? Hmmm? Weirdness. And he's normally so regal and dignified-- and yet here I was seeing him seemingly selling out and behaving most dishonorably with some factor of my inner physcial workings. Rather suspicious, eh?  Brannon, who looks like Tom Welling incidentally, and some others not recounted, regarded Vex's actions with outright disgust. So whatever Vex was doing, it must have been pretty bad to upset Brannon so much. I'm curious, but I'll have to investigate further into this matter later.
tranquilityseekers: ecstasy (trancendence)
[Originally posted Nov. 2005- before Dream Quest Project]

I had 2 weird-ass dreams this morning:

In the first, I had discovered this HUGE insect thing living inside the electronics of a large screen television. It resembled almost a crab/turtle shell thing with fingers coming out as the legs, all gnarled and "knuckly". I knew it was supposed to be something gross and that I normally would crush such a thing to kill it. Only I didn't. I let it live peacefully. I even showed if off to friends and named it Knuckles.

I became friends with the 1 and a half foot long ugly bug. It curled up to sleep at the foot of my bed, fought with my cat, and became pregnant. Eventually, it left my house to lay eggs. At that point, I was able to talk to it, and the dream turned really strange. I asked it/her if she would live after laying, and she said no-- only an hour or 2. Rather than staying, she was going to fly north and see what she could see before dying. I cried and gave it/her an awkward hug, and promised to tell her story to her progeny when they hatched-- a la Charlotte's Web. End Dream 1.

The second dream I found myself helping to coordinate a bunch of sound stage people for some huge important symphony orchestra event. I was in charge of the rhythm section-- including timpani and kettle drums and about 200 giant drums about half the size of a van each! Too much. I was working closely with another woman who looked and sounded just like the actress Andie McDowell, and she really seemed to like me. The Andie character told me the giant drums were for "thunderous power" and that I belonged in the the drum section. (At one point, I was feeling a bit put out, because I wanted to work with the violin section instead.) Just before we were set for the performance, and everyone was getting all dressed up, she came over to me and gave me a bright sapphire blue rose corsage to wear on my wrist-- only she put it on my right wrist rather than my left. "I just want you to feel appreciated!" she smiled and went on. I glowed with happiness at that. End Dream 2.


Both dreams involved hands. Both involved "strange love." Both involved creativity and the preparation for something big...

I'd say writing or projects involving my creative self are about to take off. The last time I had such dreams was right before I began a pagan Trad and Circle in 1996. (In those dreams I had fetus fingers!)

The "ugly bug" is about my reluctance to write because I'm ashamed of being judged by critics and detractors. I've never done well with negativity directed at me, and fear of ridicule and disdain is the main reason I never finish a writing project. The bug being nurtured, despite it's ugliness, is very symbolic of my own relationship to my writing -- I feel it's gross and disgusting, but I love it anyway and just don't have the heart to kill it. The dream indicates that that era of my life is about to end, and soon will be replaced with "new baby bugs"-- lots of them! Potential is ripe and ready.

The drums and corsage? Again with the tremendous creative power-- not yet ready to be played, all the time being set up for some momentous expression. Andie seemed like a Guide or Teacher or Helper who just wanted me to know that I still matter, and her little act of kindness, silly and trivial as it may seem, was a very powerful emotional thing for me.

Maybe I will finish a story.
tranquilityseekers: light being gifts (benevolence)

[Originally posted May 2008]

A person can directly confront all those issues piled up in the subconscious through dreaming. I took the term "Shadow" from a well-known archetype-- the Shadow is the part of us we suppress in order to get along with our world, our selves, and other human beings. Shadows are the result of SOME repeated message that told us "NO" to some past impulse, desire, or behavior. I realized that my Shadows actually live on in my dreams, and I met and spoke with many of them. I was intrigued to find that so many of them were healthier than I was! That made no sense if "Shadows" are supposed to be bad...

... but then I realized that it all depends upon the messages (and the messengers) that created the Shadows in the first place. Since a Shadow can only be created by a cast light, I named the personalities who personified the Programs of my past (thus creating the Shadows) "Rays." Rays also live on in our dreams as well, and I've had more problems with unhealthy Rays in my psyche than any Shadows.  Which makes sense given how I was raised-- not very well by alcoholic parents. And I was poor. And I was sickly. And I got picked on... Need I go on? That's a ton of crappy messages (which can become powerful enough to become automatic Programs) to create Rays from.

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tranquilityseekers: stone head (strength)

Most of us think of our bodies as mutely running machines. We think of our physical self as a vehicle that we reside in-- often as an extention of our "selves." Even if we think of our body as dynamic and vital and alive, we don't think it can "speak" and certainly we don't think of it as a community that speaks to itself-- yet this is just what my deep dreaming techniques have revealed.

When I began my Dream Quest over a year ago, I was given some instruction by Nahili, the Shawnee medicine woman I worked with for a time in Ohio back country. Though modern western peoples are starting to "get" that many dreams have meaning-- we don't always apply this knowledge properly. Some conversations with Nahili opened my mind to the concept that dreams reveal the internal workings of our bodies to our conscious minds, and can even tell us things and be told things this way-- something that is common knowledge to shamanic cultures everywhere.

And so I started to dutifully record dreams that I realized were indeed about my body-- part of my body or even entire systems like the digestive system or the nervous system or the endoctrine (hormonal) system. Here is one example of what I mean-- my first recognizable immune system dream:

I was watching (and then one of) a group of young men who all stayed at a sort of resort/rehabilitation type facility. They worked on personal health issues and gave each other support. I watched them discuss, in a very New Agey way, all sorts of things like they were in some kind of seminar or cult or something. They were all feeling very optimistic and gung ho about improvements. They were all very lovey-dovey, very alike, and made me think of gay guys because they were so... tough and yet fragile? The headquarters where they lived were at the top of a hill in the middle of a wilderness park of some kind.Read more... )

There's a neatness to the symbolism here. Immune system dreams have a signature I've learned to recognize, in that they involve groups of people (who are discernably different than you: gay, foreign, cultists, whatever) yet who are on your side working with you and for you. I call the symbolism "the friendly foreigner immunity groups."  By contrast, hostile groups of people who are actively attacking you along with friendly types in a dream are expressions of invasion and represent germs and infections. For example, just before getting the flu a couple of years ago I had 2 or 3 dreams of raids and wars before I felt any symptoms at all-- sure enough, I got slammed with the worst flu I've had since I was 13 years old! Problems interfering with the proper functioning of the immune system can get revealed this way as well, as the above dream example demonstrates.

Another bodily system I evidently have major issues with is my digestive system. It appears to work just fine but for a bit of IBS (Irritible Bowel Syndrome.) However! My dreams have revealed that there is a major problem-- in fact, that my immune system problems seem to be stemming FROM my digestive system!? Witness this dream in which I which I was led to the entrance to a "spiraling mine shaft"  (and what do intestines look like?):

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I wasn't sure at the time I had this dream what the mine shaft and tunnels represented, but later I had a second dream that brought the point home pretty forcefully. I went down into the tunnels of a subway system and road the train there, learning about problems with bad transporation issues and energy shortages.

It appears that in my case, much of my ill-health stems from malabsorption and inefficient delivery of nutrients and energy to where it's needed. Interestingly, as I began to follow the advice on what to do (like more fiber to help speed things along and extra vitamin and mineral supplements, and MOST especially taking yogurt like "Activa" and other helpful bacterial cultures) my digestive issues, immunity issues, and lack-of-energy issues improved dramatically. And all from just figuring out my own body-symbolism in dreams and trying to communicate with my own body (and those helpful Guides-- which are like your own personal Guardian Angels!) 

Other people I've counseled on dreams include an elderly friend who had breast cancer and another who had a stroke. Their dreams very vividly illustrated how their bodies were attempting to deal with the massive damage and changes of not only the initial disease or attack, but of the sometimes harsh medical treatments that came later. For example, the treatments for cancer can be quite brutal, and I talked extensively to my friend "Pat" -- and she was able to talk to her body in dreams and explain why she was poisoning it! (It protested vehemently, as you can imagine!) After she was able to explain that it was to kill the "Crazy Kids" (in her dreams, the cancer invasion was a bunch of hungry, crazy rock n' roll teenagers-- hey, she's in her 70s!) After that, the side effects from her cancer treatment went way down and her doctors were amazed. 

This dream work stuff can be really powerful.
tranquilityseekers: blue angel staff (education)
[Originally posted April 30, 2008]

My dream work has become so complex and in depth that it has been suggested that I write some sort of guide out for everyone to help them understand the whole Dream Quest project I've been doing for years now. 

The background behind this is that I discovered that my dreams affect and reflect my physical body, my psychological issues, and my spiritual journey in life. I worked with a Native American medicine woman for about a year actively, and her completely different take on healing the body, mind, and soul through a new approach to the dreaming world inspired me. I had already learned to do lucid dreaming (being awake, aware, and in control within a dream) and had a knack for interpreting dream symbology-- yet there was so much more I could do!

SO!-- I started a dream quest that really became 3 separate, ongoing dream journeys:

1.  A Dream Quest to help heal my body by learning to TALK to and LISTEN to various parts of my body (digestive system, immune system, etc.) through dream imagery.

2.  A Dream Quest to help heal my psychological injuries by learning to speak and listen to various aspects of my subconscious mind through the dramatic story-lines and characters within my dreams.

3.  A Dream Quest to help me discover my spiritual purpose and the mysteries of life and of the collective mind of humanity.

I have not written down all of the dreams I've had by any means, only the most dynamic and interesting ones. I notice that vivid or lucid dreams tend to come in waves, and generally when my life is a little calmer OR I'm asking for them. It seems there is a natural mechanism in place that helps us to avoid overloading our own system when we're under extreme stress like an emergency situation. When I'm more open and ready to listen and pay attention, the dreams that have a real meaning are remembered with greater frequency and in greater detail.

As I've proceeded on my various dream quests, I've learned more and more about my own personal symbolic system as pertaining to body, mind, and spirit-- and talking to others about their dreams seems to indicate that everyone has a very similar system with interesting personal variations! We all have similar immune system dreams, for instance-- and they ALL involve robots, doctors/nurses, and/or friendly or invading foreigners.  Everyone has psychological issue dreams with very distinct and recognizable "rays" and "shadows" and even "guides." Everyone has access to a higher level of spiritual reality through their dreams. Some of these things are universal-- and that is what Nahili's teachings led me to understand. Further, people from similar cultures tend to have very similar symbolic characters and structures in their dreams. If you can figure out the symbols and learn to listen to and watch what's really going on in your dreams, you can completely re-write your own reality, heal your body, work out those issues from your past, and live a life much more free and complete than ever before.

2015 NOTE: Years later and I still find this work (or maybe its more a type of focused play) fascinating. I found IFS or "Internal Family Systems Therapy" uses a strikingly similar set of characters for psychological healing as well. Exploring more avenues using that at this time...


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